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I’m coming back up since my last, overly dramatic and exceedingly self-deprecating, post I completely wasted the long holiday. I spent much of the whole weekend in bed, depressed, crampy and with a sinus headache, watching movies and eating ice cream. When I wasn’t in my bed watching movies I was on Cathy’s couch watching movies, on my parents couch watching their telly, and I went out with my dad to go see a movie, Hamlet 2. The most active thing I did was take a walk with Raye on Sunday to the arboretum. Meanwhile the rest of The Girls™ had a pretty awesome weekend, going out to Alki, Chopstix, and Bumbershoot. Oh well. I made my bed and believe me I lied in it.
 
I dreaded coming back to work. John has actively avoided the office and me. I’ve exchanged but three words to him in person. On Monday I ran into him in the hall and we both said “morning.’” I had to leave him a message for him to ask him to close the patrician in the lobby yesterday for Picture Day and that is the extent of our interaction since I embarrassed myself by drunkenly blurting out that I fancied him. I ruined a good thing, no more having my heart a flutter when I hear him come by, instead my stomach churns at the sound and I turn my back and find something on my desk to look busy doing. No mroe stealing inappropriate glances, I think I only saw him walk by once yesterday. No more sitting around and shooting the shit. But I know that time will heal things to where we can both do our job without actively avoiding one another. Such is life and twenty-something-single-drunkard-angst, I suppose.
 
Luckily, I’ve been super busy at work. There’s so many projects on my plate and Marna’s going on vacation for three weeks. Yesterday was picture day that actually went better than it ever has in the years that I’ve worked here. We were done by about noon-ish and only a couple of kids were being little bitches about it. I got my portrait taken in this year’s favorite shirt and I look forward to getting the pictures back sometime in October.
 
Things are getting better in so far as I got a call back about volunteering. I should have a shift in Columbia City if my interview goes well. I’ve never been, I know it’s on Rainer but I’m not sure how far out or how the commute will be (by bus at night). But whatever I’m t-u-f-f.  

Also, after a very unproductive weekend, my week thus far has been much better. I’ve worked on Grad School research for the past two nights. Last night I had a half Grad School half Mir Night that went really well. It feels good to have a book to return to the library finished, musings on what to do next in my grad school process and pages of inspired notes and an outline for a new story (especially after a very dry summer for writing). I’m abstaining from ANTM this season because I’m just too busy, I need to write, work on the book The Girls™ are writing, and work on school stuff. Besides, if I’m going to tune into a show it’s gonna be House and/or Pushing Daisies because they’re scripted (no offence Tyra). Anyway, Raye came home from Cathy’s and ANTM night to find me a bit tipsy from a bottle of wine and absolutely giddy from my strike of inspiration and the good use of my hours. I kinda want to work on it more tonight but we got a book meeting and then I’m escorting Christine to Chopstix and hopefully will have a jolly good time.

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dan10things
Sep. 4th, 2008 04:35 pm (UTC)
If it was me, I'd pretend like it never happened and treat him exactly the same as you had. What happens outside work, stays outside work. Head up, chin high, don't avoid conversation, and act like his reaction didn't phase you at all. For all you know he has a girlfriend, is gay, or you totally surprised him...
pandapropaganda
Sep. 4th, 2008 05:26 pm (UTC)
...yeah that sounds a lot better (hipper, more aloof) than my stupid apology script I've written in my head.

Thanks. :)
(Anonymous)
Sep. 4th, 2008 05:36 pm (UTC)
What a stupid boy Mir! You are only full of awesomeness!

XOXOXOXOXOXOXO!
angelsong
Sep. 4th, 2008 05:37 pm (UTC)
Oh that was me....stupid for not logging in!
pandapropaganda
Sep. 4th, 2008 06:09 pm (UTC)
You flatter me so...
awwww shucks. Thanks, luv. :)
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